day 5493754 in the "Not being able to eat because my wisdom teeth suck" Count.

stop laughing at me.

I Walk upstairs, CRAVING a salad.

I NEEDED THAT DAMN SALAD.

I needed that salad like a llama needs a good ass raping.

Whatever that means.

I just wanted to say llama and ass raping in the same sentence.

the salad was a nice touch too.

Anyway, back to the hunger.

I asked my mom if she thought i would be able to eat it.

she laughed.

that whore.

so instead I had noodles.

and pretended they were a salad.

"mmm this Ice tastes like water!"

and then I took a nice 7 hour nap around 6pm.

which is fffaaaaannntastic.

woke up, went and got a slurpee from 7-11

Im so getting more of those tomorrow.

ahh numbing sensation.

mmmmmm

tomorrow, Im suposed to take my brother, Pat to my grandmas.

Yes, thats right. Hes out of Jail.

So Lock your cars.

or he may steal it and crash it because hes a moron.

You think im kidding.

but im not.

not only did i get the looks in this family, but i got the brains as well.

which isnt saying much.

and now, I leave you with a picture of me.

Because this is what I feel like.

I had a dream about steak N shake last night.

Thats how tired I was.

It started as a simple IRC conversation.

and then some how turned into me Diving off a table

To do a handstand On selenas shoulders.

Which turned into a handspring.

Dont ask. I dont understand either.

and then, you hear tom (moo) In the background

"Jesus Christ Jenny, I didnt know you were so flexiable"

and then I woke up laughing.

and there was some strange stuff in between

But I have to pee and leave for work.

So I got distracted.

and forgot it.

another great night at steak N shake

Tom shot a spoonful of sugar in my eyes, and I squirted Coffee creamer on him.

While They were laughing about my distance being amazing,

I was Crying because my eyes were burning.

We have some good times at sNs.

Ahhh the laughter.

And now, Im going to bed.

Because I have to be up in 4 hours to go to work.

Life is so cruel.

Eleven random things about me: 1.   I  have a younger sister named mary who ive never met 2.   I have a freckle on the bottom of my foot. 3.   I have weird crooked toes 4.   I am allergic too two things, Bactrum which is a medicine. and bubble bath 5.   In my life, ive owned at least 13 cats 6.   I have only had one operation in my life. and thats when i was 5 7.   When I was little I Adored Big bird, and still have my spoon and fork 8.  my first CD Ever was The rembrants, This house is not a home which also had the friends theme on it. 9.   I used to live in apartment 202 In brentwood apartments. 10. I am a compulsive Lipgloss user 11. I went to Germany, and danced on a train with my friends 10 places I've visited: 1.   Germany 2.   florida 3.   Indiana 4.   Michigan 5.   missuriori 6.   wisconsin (I dont think ive been ten Places :/) 7.   Lake in the hills 8.   Chicago 9.   Switzerland 10. France its sad when you have to name towns 3 minutes away to fill up all ten :/ Nine things I want to do before I die: 1.  Be happy 2.  Go to canada  3. Go back to germany 4.  Pay off my car 5.  have kids 6.  own a horse 7.  Get married 8.  write a best selling book 9.  see the cubs win the world series....5 times Eight of your most used phrases: 1.  *Gives you a cookie* 2.  I am NOT hot. 3.  Shush 4.  *kisses N stuff* 5.  I'm tired 6.  Hey whoooore 7.  /me slaps you around with stuff 8.  hey, youre hot. Get naked! Seven things that I believe/believe in: 1. Fairies. 2.  Sometimes Death makes it all better. 3.  Cancer sucks 4.  The power of cheese 5.  Friends 6.  Friendships that are strengthended by a Steakburger eating contest 7.  True love Six things I'm afraid of: 1.  Spiders 2.  Clowns 3.  my mom in her underwear 4.  Death. Not mine, but everyone i love 5.  being truely alone 6.  never being happy Five of my favorite items in my bedroom: 1.  BIG BED! 2.  My Tv 3.  My computer 4.  My teddy bear 5.  all my pictures, and memory items. and Of course.. mr. Ron burgundy Four things I touch every day: 1.  computer 2.  Teddybear 3.  myself.(KIDDING 4.  my car keys Three things I am thinking about right now: 1.  If my grandma is going to be alright 2. where the hell are my friends 3. God damn it I have to pee Two things I want to do right now: 1.  Pee 2.  and Get back in bed after peeing One person you want to see right now: 1.  I would give anything to have Jason here

I am all out of Redi-Whip

My life no longer has meaning.

Though our moments together were brief,

I would like to share the memory of it with you.

Thank you for your support.

Ok. I went to my grandma's yesterday.

and shes getting worse.

and it hurts so bad when i tell her i have to go.

she just gets this sad look.

and i feel like crying

so tonight, being the good granddaughter that I am.

im going there again

and sleeping over.

so if you need/want to have contact with me...

you really cant :-/

but i cant imagine anything is going to be super important.

and now, its time for work.

hgfdgpfdhgofdgnfdogf

oh, and ps. Jase is the fuckin hottest dude ever. and guess what? ALLLLL MINE. Even if he is a little porker *Hearts n Stuff*

alright Guys ready for somethign amazing?

I used to look like this

and like this

I WAS A LITTLE PORKER... a very tan little porker.. But a porker none the less.

Now I look like this!

I am dead sexy!

Do you guys remember freshman year?

There was a group of us, Crystal, Brittani, Dyer, Clayton, Zack, Jeff, Charlie, Tozzi, Dylan,Kevin, Chris, Brandon,  Jake... and a whole Bunch of others.

Do you guys remember how much fun we had? We had our own little corner at the football games. That became our corner. all four years. We sat there. Sure it was with our new friends, but we were all there. and then some.

I miss that. I miss the group of people who I knew would pretty much be there, Every day at lunch to fight over the benches outside. Every Study hall when We would pass pointless notes. Every class where we would Talk about how bored we are, pass stupid notes and Copy each others homework. and then we would all converge for 5 minutes and laugh and joke around.

You know what? High school was the best years of my life. I havent lived alot of my life. But From where I am now... sitting home alone on a friday night being bored and feeling sorry for myself... from where i was. the group who always did things together. Like go to the movies, drink Slushies and smear vasiline on zacks leg (yes crystal thats you) and Do random Hand checks if someone was dating someone else. Or Have friends who would sit there and Listen to you make out with your first real boyfriend (again crystal that was you! least you know how you and Jeff sound ) Or Friends who will laugh at you as you run across traffic and get yelled at by their neighbors. Take pictures with spoons. SPOONY HOW I MISS YOU! Friends who, on worst day of your life. You call them up tell them you need to talk, and they are there for you. People who You stay up all night on the phone with and wake up at some point to hear them snoring on the other end.

I had some awesome friends. and I mean you guys. Seriously... where did that all go? Other than us just.. kinda falling apart? And me... dating almost every one of you... or liking you at some point? I dont think more than 3-4 of us are really good friends. and I think we all know what you think of me.

But dont you guys ever just look back, to when we didnt have a care in the world, other than what the next spirit day was? Or who liked who? I miss it. It was simpler. It was fun. It was great.

I dont know what made me think of this, but i was just driving around wondering where my life went. I used to be outgoing. and fun. and now, im only outgoing and fun to save face. I dont hate any of you. Not even crystal. And I really do hope you guys all get everything in life you've dreamed of... Well the simple little things.

 

 

My Buddy Dan Thorn Is the coolest guy EVER

*Mad Hearts For Him*

he just lets me bitch and bitch and bitch.

and I can bitch aloooot

and then I go and make his life hard at work.

not that hes working hard to begin with :-p

But hes my hero.

Werd yo.