Hmm
I havent written Much.
Dont have much to say. But now, some pIctures.
Heres me with a swollen Face looking pathetic
I love how I look like Im going to cry.
and Now Heres the cutest baby ever.
Alex has the most adorable smile ever.
He is so lucky to look like me :-p
Look, A cubbies fan already!
Yes, That there, is the love of my life.
just got back from steak n shake.
Started off with me calling tom and talking him into going.
then running into nates car in the parking lot and getting him to come too.
and then bribing patti into coming.
it was just one big shindig.
Since it is now 430, I can not eat or drink.
Thank god.
Because I am so fuckin full.
Alex is home from the hospital.
Im relieved.
like you wouldnt belive.
Im staying away from him though.
Because I am sick
I do not want him getting sick.
Now I have a head ache
Back to watching magic school bus
next time you talk to me, Ill be 4 teeth less.
and In a niceeeee vicodin coma.
o/
I had a break down this morning.
I knew it was coming.
My sister called to say we wernt sure if he was going to be ok.
They couldnt get enough factor in him.
He isnt dead yet.
God.
My Baby alex...dead.
I cant... I wont be able to deal with it.
when I said i couldnt handle any more death,
I didnt think the next one i would be dealing with,
could be his.
I need to get away.
I need A vacation.
I need a canadian hug.
and I need to clean my room.
which is what I am off to do now.
Least then I will be keeping busy instead of sitting here.
Waiting.
It just baffles me, as to why life sucks as much as it does.
Not even for me.
But for my sister, and her husband.
"What do you call a husband who loses a wife? A widow.
What do you call a Child who loses his/her parents? an orphan.
What do you call a parent who loses their child? Nothing, The pain is to great to put into words"
^^^^^^^^
Think about it.
right as I went upstairs to leave for work, Big jenny and brad were getting ready to take alex back to the hospital.
Yes, I am extremely worried. and scared. and there is nothing I can do about this at all.
I cant go up there and be with him.
I cant Hold him and make him stop crying.
I am completely helpless, and It sucks.
on a completely un-related note
I hate being sick.
The end.
so yesterday, I told nathan That i would cover his shift today.
Since its sunday and all and he has "Family day"
Then this morning, I woke up.
Now my list of problems i bigger.
Wisdom teeth Are killing me.
My cough is worse.
My Voice is gone.
I still cant breathe through my nose.
and To top it all off...
I have wonderful, lovely, Crippling Cramps.
o/
this is the fucking week from hell.
I cant wait!!!
Till im in a nice Vicodin haze.
you slarz.
Alright, alex is out of the hospital and doing fine.
I cant really paly with him or anything
because im now coughing and cant breathe
and ive lost my voice
which TimH3 Finds histerical
YOU ASS!!
Worked Thursday, Friday, saturday and now work sunday as well.
I will be getting Mucho mucho money for this week
and thats what keeps me going.
Going to the movies tonight with Thorn.
Because he's in a
"Im a loser" mood.
so I have to cheer him up
It IS my mission in life.
im in a decent mood.
Really hyper.
which is good.
Cuz I feel like crap
o/
And now, Im gonna go find some Soup.
or ice.
Who knows.
The end.
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