OMG

WE HAD A FUCKIN AWESOME TIME

Jetski's are my new calling in life

So is tubing.

And a boat house.

CUDDLE!!!!

It was amazing

Im burnt, I can hardly walk.

I'll tell you more later when i get peektures.

 

Laundry: Done
Room: Not Clean
Bag : Packed
Stomach: Growling
Hair: Sexy as hell
Nerves: Shot

We leave in 6 hours. I go over to patti's in 3-4. This is going to be
the best time of my life. I can tell. And even if it isnt, I still have
Jetski's!!! Patti cracks me up, telling me I need to find someone. That
being alone isnt good. Le sigh. I dont think she understands that I am
a loner. I put on a happy face in social occasions. But most of the
time, Im most happiest being a nerd, alone, in my room.

My mom had the depression talk with me yesterday. I dont think she
quite grasps that I can handle more than she thinks I can. Yes I had a
breakdown when my grandma was in the hospital, but after all the shit
Ive delt with, it was only natural. It's strange going to elk grove to
pack things up. It amazing at the same time, because we're finding so
many cool things that were my moms. I was scared that there were pretty
much no pictures of my mom anywhere. But We have millions.

What honestly hurts the most, isnt that my grandma doesnt live there.
Its learning so much about my moms life, now, that shes gone. I have so
many questions. And no one to give me answers. I just have to peice
together what I can, and hope I am doing the woman justice. I wish my
brother could be a part of this, not that he would appreciate it like
me. But it would still be nice to sit down, and be like "wow, Mom
really loved math, who knew?"

I saw pictures of my real sister. I have her Birthcertificate, Pictures
of her. Information on how to find out where to reach her if I so
desire. I'm thinking about it. I want to get my feet on the ground,
wait another year till Mary is 18, and then See if I can contact her.
If anything let her know I exist. I almsot cried when i saw the
pictures. She looks like me, but with dark hair.

Ok, enough being sappy and pathetic. I have some eggo waffles just calling my name. Toodles.

oh btw, Finished HBP in 6 hours because I rukle. It was amazing. David
has yet to finish it, which means I have no one to talk about it with
But he was such a sweetheart buying it for me.

Seriously.
Awesome friend. He knew exactly what I wanted and went to get it. lol
we're such nerds. Today we Broke into Shireland, which is that old
amusement park. And Walked about 4 miles through the woods. and such.
Taking pictures for his photos finals.

in two days we're going up to Patti's cabin in wisconsin for jetskis
and Awesome times. Annie might come with. If not thats ok, the three of
us will have a blast. Besides theres only three jetski's so we wil have
a kick ass time.

do do do do.

Nothing is more fun than an awesome party.
Seriously!!!
Parties rock my world.

YAY PARTIES.
YAY FRIEND.
heh
Ok, Bed time.
Night people <3

Last night was alright.

Watched a Drunk Jason make out with some chick.
Whoopie for me I guess.
Then I got drunk, had David pick me up.
We went to danny's for pool and good times.

Little heavy on the good times.
Ended up SWITCHING clothes with david.
Lets just say, David fills out my bra better than me.
*Sobs*

And now, I have to clean my room.
Which means, Im going to go drive and smoke.
AND THEN maybe clean.
Mmmm Cucumber salad for breakfast
*Drools*

Went to lunch with a FUN group of people yesterday.
Ok thats a lie.
It was my mom, my little sister, and my grandma.
That sucked. My grandma has no idea who I am.
Lets just say I got home and cried for a few hours.
and then took a really long nap.

Yes Brittani the comment was directed at you.
and a few others. And no, I dont care either.

David is my new Favorite Friend next to Patti.
I went to SNS last night angry because I couldnt get the harry potter book.
well he comes in, tells me I look adorable, and To close my eyes.
I thought maybe he bought me a pack of smokes, NO!
HE BOUGHT ME HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE!!!
I proceeded to Jump out of the booth, Leap on to him, and Scream alot.
Basicly making a fool out of myself in public.

Then David ran to his car to get his Book, and we sat there for 2 hours reading.
Then I came home and stayed up all night reading.
Took me 7 hours total.

It was sooooo amazing.
I bawled at the end.
And Yet.
SOOOO AMAZING.

Im re-reading it tonight.
Because...ITS SOOOO AMAZING.

Oh, P.s. I suck @ quitting smoking.

oh my goodness! I'm a bitch!
wonder what I did this time?
Not that I care.
The never ending soap opera that is my life is still going on.
Spent the day sleeping because every time I went upstairs I got yelled at for something.
Then I went out with patti and david, and they were fighting. which put me in a bad mood.
and Now for some reason, I'm a bitch.

Brittani, you havent talked to me in over a month. I haven't done anything to be called a bitch.
But it's true. Im a huge bitch. And I really dont care. If you would
like to continue to tell me why im a bitch, Feel free to call me. Ill
be home tomorrow between 6-10.

Awesome.
Outpost tomorrow night. Annie, David, Jennie and I are going. Gonna rock out hardcore. Gotta love the hick bars.

And now, Im going back to sleep. 14 hours of sleep just isnt enough for me. I want 10 more damn it!

Stolen From Christine. Because it rawks.

'50s-style diner serves next generation of dreamers, schemers

Publication Northwest Herald
Date April 17, 2005
Section(s) Local News

By ALLISON L. SMITH

asmith@nwherald.com

The Steak 'n Shake on Randall Road in Lake in the Hills may seem a world
away from the city, but go there any night and you'll find an unlikely
collection of brash philosophers.

The throng of teens and 20-somethings scratch and rattle against the drone
of suburbia. In the midst of boxy retail mania, they carve a nocturnal
refuge - still young enough to spew unjaded odes to world peace and artistic
expression, not yet old enough to have the resources or job skills that
forge reality from ideas.

They've been gathering almost every night - some for a few weeks, many
several years - to smoke, drink coffee, rant, read, write, sing,
collaborate, and find and lose lovers.

They are the Steak 'n Shake regulars, crawling unapologetically from one red
vinyl booth to the next.

"We always have [great] conversations here," says Brandon Casimer, 20, who
comes every night he can get a ride. "The tangents are the best part."

Most of the regulars say they come to the '50s-style burger chain - itself a
chromatic tribute to the era of soda shop hang-outs - because they feel
welcome.

McHenry County does have other restaurants that are open all night, but most
have some expectations that customers will order food and stay in their
seats.

Jessica Berauer, 20, has worked at the Steak 'n Shake for nearly four years.
She says that between 9 p.m. and dawn, most orders consist of "tons and tons
and tons of coffee."

"People who work the later shift are young and can relate to the customers,"
she says. "They're not really in it for the tip money, like some older
servers at other places."

Casimer, for one, appreciates the chance to have a cup of joe and work on
creative projects without pressure to consume.

"I got kicked out of a place the other day for just drinking coffee," he
says. "That's never an issue here."

About 10:30 p.m. on a recent weekday, Casimer chain-smokes Camel Lights with
Anthony Elston, 20. Both guitar players, they have had a band in concept
mode for years.

"It's called Fhlip-Mohe," Casimer says. "It's all [kinds of] music. We don't
want it to have a genre."

When their waitress asks Casimer whether he's ready to order, he grins and
strokes his blond beard, saying, "Depends."

"I'm not working third [shift] tonight," the waitress responds.

The grin fades, and he nods, " OK. Water."

"No pop?"

"Nah. I'm broke."

Moments later, she brings him a soda. The grin returns.

Broke or breaking are perpetual states for most of the diner's regulars, a
few of them former Steak 'n Shake employees.

If they aren't doling tips on potential jobs or respectfully boasting their
newest gig, they're bashing the Washington fat cats for putting oil ahead of
the little guy.

Unemployed Casimer gets a line on a part-time security job at McHenry County
College from a veteran regular known as "Beef," who sports his MCC duds at
the diner after work.

On a rare night off his security post in a gated neighborhood, Nate
Langfeldt, 21, ends up at Steak 'n Shake. He's already hit two other spots,
hungry for recreation.

In a black trench coat and braided hemp necklace with a Kermit the Frog
medallion, Langfeldt offers a smooth hand slap.

"What'ya doin'?" Casimer says.

"Huntin', man," he says, rocking like a boxer ready to punch.

By his 11:15 p.m. arrival, the checkerboard café is packed with piercings
and bold dye-jobs.

Jessy Petersen, 18, waves off a cloud of smoke as she manages to focus on
her solitaire game in the heady hum. A girl nearby lolls a netted leg on the
lap of her lanky beau, himself distracted by the impromptu rap being waged
one seat over.

Langfeldt chats about his plan to fill the long hours in the security booth
with a marathon of Kevin Smith-directed movies. That reminds Casimer to tell
Elston about the progress of the animated TV pilot he's developing with a
friend. They've got storyboards laid out for two seasons already, he says.

"Oh, yeah, well you look like the type to do the 'Rugrats,'" Elston quips,
as they launch into caffeinated debate about "South Park" and other
satirical cartoons.

Elston has his own good news to share, other than the tickets he scored to
an Incubus concert.

For him, like practically everyone at Steak 'n Shake, affordable rent away
from the [pa]'rents is a chronic quest.

The Algonquin native is whiling away what he hopes to keep to a year-long
break from the University of Colorado, where he studies avant-garde film. He
announces he's got a foot in the door of a Zen Buddhist commune.

"Imagine waking up just to sit down and go back to sleep," Elston muses
about meditation, half teasing. "And they might give me odd jobs. Sounds
like the life, right?"

Hell yes my friends!!!

Alright Time for a REAL update.
Last night Annie, Patti, David, Danny and I went to Denny's for some awesome conversation and great straight curly fries. Lol
"Oh we could just push her down the stairs into a pile of coat hangers!"
These people crack me up.
Even though I said that.
Heh.
Then we went to SNS, where We proceeded to act like complete and total idiots. and It was FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC.

So the other night, I met Matt, or Rusty. He started hitting on me....and then told me he was engaged.
Well I stopped that whole Hitting on thing, and at about 6 am that
morning, we went for a walk around patti's block. Talking about his
fiance, and why I dont date etc. etc. Well, I talked to him last night
at sns, and he touched my butt. and Im like "NO! Bad Matt!" and he told
me he broke it off with his fiance. Now, His friend said theres more
too it. But he wont tell me. Granted we just met, but im still curious
as all fuckin hell. lol.

I didnt sleep for 40 hours. it sucked. but then I slept for about 9ish.
And Im alot better now. Although Im hungry. and theres a pint of Ben
and Jerry's Brownie icecream just begging for me to eat it.

Today is wensday. Today is Nero's day. Today is the day I go and make
an ass infront of hot guys at neros. o/ Ain't nuttin wrong wit dat!
Friday is Kareoke night at the outpost, and Saturday is Party night at Pattis. Hah, Drunken Bonfire here we come!!!

I still need a job.

But till then, I have some pretty kick ass friends.

Except for the ones who dont call me until they have no one else to hang out with.
Thats just kinda lame.

None of you will understand my joy for this.
but last night, I killed over 300 people.
Reset on AD
So it was a free for all.
and it was fuckin sexy as all hell.
I couldnt die.
and It rocked my world.
Like
Hardcore and stuff.